Quite

I have been so quite on this here old blog...not much to say I guess. Sure kids are growing and talking in full sentences and saying words like amazing!! The other is crawling like no one business and has seem to found her sleeping skills at night.
She MUST have been really working on that crawling during all the night waking she went though at 5 months. Milli is 7 months tomorrow.....exactly 7 months ago they started the drugs and that girl was on her way out.
Babies are the best, they are fresh and new and passionate about life. Recently with the large amount of stress that my life is going through, I find myself clingy to her infant joy. I find I hold her close and watch with amazed eyes as she does something way before her brother ever did. But in all that I am drawn to this quite desperation I have to define myself as a parent.

In situations lately where I am not defined as a parent makes such a huge difference in the parts of my life where I do identify as one. Milli in all of grace and wisdom has allowed me to do that by crawling sooner and being independent, but still needing me in little ways. She has allowed me to continue pumping, which today I could not believe that I have been back to work for 6 months and still pumping!!! I feel like I should get a gold star or something. It is crazy to think that I have done it!! But that has not been me...no my friends that is all her, my sweet yet crazy lady. (emiliana) <3