Wednesday, September 10, 2008

Day 2 Moving on

Sooooo yesterday sucked!

I did not sleep well so it still kinda feels like the same day.

Here are the good things:

1. I prayed on Monday for god to open my heart to move forward and not feel stuck.
Good job god, you unstuck me. I will give you the glory! I applied for 4 jobs today, and feel good about each and everyone.

2. I realize that I need to be me to be happy. By being me it means, putting my family first. They are the most important things to me in my life!!! I am not a good person to them if I am just putting forth the "effort"

3. We are going to be ok. Things will work out, they always do!

4. I have an amazing support system. I really can not thank my mom and few others out there enough on the support I had to made it though yesterday. I made it and I already don't feel bad about the letting go of my job and what I did or did not do. I have no control over perceptions about me.

Things are looking up. We will be ok. I will be ok.

p.s. I will post pictures from camping weekend soon!


Samantha said...

Things will definately look up! In a way it is a blessing that this happened so that you will be able to find something that is truly your passion! When you are happy at work, you will be much happier at home because you enjoy everything that you are doing then. Make sense? We are always here for you through good times and bad no matter what! Judgments should not be passed by people who are truly your friends because no matter what friends should be there for you! :-) You'll find your way again...right now just enjoy spending time with your family :-)

Beth said...

Lane!!! You know you kick ass, so don't be too hard on yourself. Some people just don't appreciate the truly gifted and we don't have to work for them, do we?? Time to etsy it up, girl!!! Holidays are coming!!
xoxo Beth

randi said...

*Hugs* I've been thinking about you. Take this as the opportunity that it is. To both find a job that makes you smile and spend precious time with your son. God just gave you a gift. Keep your chin up and we're always here for you...whether you're feeling up or down.